Sunday Night

Still on the sofa. Mouth no longer hurting, but the injection site from the flu shot is extremely painful. That's what happens when you get a shot in a torn muscle. Fever and chills lessening somewhat. Itching all over, but no rash, so I'm not worrying about it.

Tomorrow, I'll begin packing the cupboards, drawers and other out of the way storage areas. Then, I will move on to closets and main cabinets. At some point I have to get into the attic. Hubby put a number of my things up there when I moved in, and they've not been seen since.

Considering that I have spent a lot of time over the past couple of years downsizing, this should be easy. Should be easy are famous last words. I know better.

I have no boxes yet, nothing to store or move things in. Still don't have a firm move in date, either. The tenant should be out by the first. Hope so, I'm ready to get this over with.

I have a short list of needs. Table, fridge, bed, curtain rods, etc. I have a long list of wants also, but they can wait. 

Is a tv a want or need? I rarely watch it. Here in the city, I live between two hospitals, and there is continuous noise. The tv blocks it somewhat. In the small town I'm moving to, I can see needing it for weather watches and warnings. There is a wifi hotspot on my phone, but watching tv shows or movies with it would use the monthly allotment in a couple of hours. Maybe it is a need.

It's not easy being here, knowing I'm not in my "home" anymore. It's a kind of limbo. I feel displaced, nothing is as it should be. 

I'm in a place that has been my home for four years. A place where I've settled, made some friends, made wonderful memories. I've completely remodeled it, landscaped most of the yards, really put my mark on this place. It's truly lovely, and it is no longer mine.

I thought it would be my forever home. Now, it's just a place where I am tolerated until I can get moved out. I will miss being here. I miss the love that used to be here, the happiness and excitement of living my dreams with a man I love more than life itself.

Enough for now......