Knowing that reflecting on the preceding year is usually done at this time tells me that I ought to as well.
Dwelling on the bad isn't happening this year. I would prefer to focus on the good and positive parts.
I do lead a wonderful life. It's full of wonders and adventures, privileges, comforts, luxury, time, opportunities, love, friendship, fun, beauty, peace and contentment. Not counting blindness I have a life that most would envy. I am really and truly grateful for all of it, each day I awaken to find myself living happily ever after.
Darling Husband makes my life special each and every day. There are hugs and kisses, I love you said frequently, flowers, dinners and outings, romantic gestures, and time. He makes time just for me, for us, for making sure our life is the fairy tale. I am indeed blessed in every way.
My family are loving people, kind and honest. Our children and grandchildren are in our lives as well as our hearts. Darling Husband's family welcomed me with open arms. I am still part of my ex husband's family. They too are terrific people, ones I enjoy spending time with and still do.
I have friends all over. Very few in this area, many all over the country. Some I grew up with, some newer, all part of my life in one way or another. I feel honored to have each in my life.
In losing vision I have been given the gift of time. The time to adapt, to learn new ways of doing things. I have time to set systems in place that will allow me to live the life that I desire. There will not be a case of blindness ruining my life. It merely alters the plans I had made for my life. In some ways it has enhanced my life. Strange, I know, but it's true.
I get to spend my life living as I wish. Gardening and indulging in growing tropical plants. Taking online classes in subjects that interest and inspire me, that keep my mind busy. I have lists of them already, some downloaded, and some waiting. Relearning cooking and baking skills that are being challenged by the lack of sight. There are hobbies to keep me busy, many I have thought of and wanted to try, some I'd like to take up again. Some to try just to see if I like them. There are books on tape, Braille to be learned, reading software on the computer to assist me with the basics of life and sanity.
Our home is beautiful, comfortable, made for relaxing and entertaining. Every part has been redone in the past three years except for the closets. I call them "the final frontier". As with the other rooms, I study and make plans, ponder colors and the end result before putting everything related to the room improvement away. A few weeks or months later it jells all at once and then I no longer think of it. I get the paints, papers and trims and then just do the project right away. Somehow it works out perfectly.
Other than blindness I have become beautiful. Every part of me has been changed, head to toe. I still don't recognize myself in the mirror. Of course it doesn't help that the mirror is a magnifying one. Hair, face, teeth, body, wardrobe.... None of it is as it was three years ago. She is new to me and yet very familiar. The woman in the mirror looking back at me is someone I like, someone I'm still getting to know, she is someone whom I'm liking forward to spending my life as.
I'm living the life that I was meant to live all along. It is a life that I love more and more. Sure there are a lot of challenges. I'm learning, adjusting, fine tuning. Making changes to adapt to less and less sight as they come, and quite a few ahead of time so that I can be ready and not be caught unable to do things. I value being able to do for myself, capable is the term I think of at this time. The Taurus in me will keep me working hard at succeeding.
My life is, and will continue to be, very precious in every way. All of it beautiful in the manner that I experience it, in my surroundings, in the people who are part of my life, in the choices and interests that I choose to give time and effort to. The thoughts in my head greatly helped to create this reality. Dreaming since early childhood of the universe in which I wanted to live as an grownup has made this wonderland. Awakening every morning I am happy that I have this incredible world that is a dream come true. Dreams do come true, they are within reach at all times. I love it all. I more than anything love spending my life with the most loving, honorable, kind, good, generous man that I have ever known. To Him, I am precious, adored and beloved. I am.......
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