Changes

Late at night and I somehow cannot get sleepy enough to go and hug my pillow. Today, I kept busy. Apparently not busy enough to be worn out.

The house is cleaned. I'm weeding through more items. There is another stack of books to rehome, they will join three stacks already in the garage. A couple of trash bags hold even more items.

I finally shredded all of Mom's personal papers. It was hard. I had promised her that I would destroy them unread. That part was easy. The hard part was letting go of another part of her. Now, there are bags full of shredded things waiting for the next trash day.

The front room is being reorganized to accommodate several huge potted plants coming indoors for the winter. The living room has a few brought in so far.

I'm trying to memorize the changes as I make them. One thing I forgot the other night now has my legs covered front and back with huge bruises. Not being able to see at all in low light is a pain in the butt. Falling over furniture is a great incentive to pay attention.

Went to Texas Longhorn Steakhouse last night to celebrate a relative's 80th birthday. They did not have a large print menu, and my magnifying glasses and iPad apps could not magnify their regular menu due to the print and the restaurant lighting. I ended up having the menu read to me. It was embarrassing. Feeling like crap due to not being able to read on my own.

Not seeing drives me nuts. Over the past couple of weeks I went from reading huge print with 3x reading glasses to needing 6x ones. I read from less than eight inches from my face. With that, I'm still only good for a few minutes.

Sight lessens almost daily. I'm adjusting to changes rapidly, and more come at a speedy pace. I get that it's all happening so much faster than I had expected. How bad is it going get? The specialist said I may keep light and dark, shapes and shadows, some colors. No idea how quickly it will progress. She just doesn't know.

Enough for now.....