Moving slowly and wearing out quickly is becoming commonplace. Monday gave a bit more energy, Tuesday even more so. Not much more, but enough to do laundry and straighten the house, tasks formerly done in under a couple of hours as opposed to a couple of days.
Vacuuming and mopping are above my ability levels at this moment. Thankfully, the pets are determined to do their parts in keeping the floors clean. Unfortunately, the dog wants to help out by cleaning the litter box. I give her kudos for attitude.
Yesterday was dose number 4 of the methotrexate. More hair lost and I'm profoundly unhappy about that. Hats and scarves in the Oklahoma summer, it will be like a continuous hotflash.
8 pounds lost since beginning the drug, and that is the one plus. Tried on jeans from the "too small" box. 4 pairs fit perfectly, 6 more are within 5 pounds of a perfect fit. I made a mental note to try them on in a couple of weeks.
Got a few plants into the ground over the last few days, several days worth still to go. Just have to remember to keep watering them until then. Had to bring in one fuschia, it decided that the great outdoors was not to it's liking. The other one is growing like crazy outside.
I keep picking up the phone to call mom, still buying handfuls of magazines to send to her. Doesn't seem like she should be gone. Eventually, I'll get used to it.
Yesterday would have been my daughter's 28th birthday. It's the toughest day of the year for me. I'm grateful it only comes once every 365 days.
Too much loss in the past year and a half. Not enough time to mourn for one person and the next one passes.
So, I keep going on. Each day brings it's own joys and wonders as well as problems and sorrows. I try to focus on what IS, instead of what if. If I need to cry, I go ahead and do it, getting it out of my system instead of letting it fester. Bottling up feelings and sorrow doesn't work for me. Now, I don't do it in public, that's just not how I am. It's not fair to others.....
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