Methotrexate Sucks Rocks!

Methotrexate sucks rocks! I lost a handful of hair yesterday, not including what went down the tub drain. Bald is NOT part of my life plan. It doesn't run in the family. The shiny dome is not my style at all. 

I've already told my hairdresser that I will not do the nursing home blue/purple poodle perm. Its sinful to do that to women who are a captive audience. Not short either, it's shoulder length or longer, straight with bangs at my brows. That's the hair I have, that's the way I like it.

Wigs? Maybe, if I can stand summer temperatures in Oklahoma with one on my head.

So, I had been planning to use scarves as protection for my lowered immune system. Now they will do double duty for the lack of hair......

Side effects again. Maybe the fatigue will keep some of my hair attached to my head. Too tired to comb  or brush it. Nope, just found more on the sofa pillow.......

I keep looking for the bright side of taking this medication. Other than weight loss, I cannot find much to cheer about. It's funny that I'm not more excited about losing weight. I work so hard to battle the pounds that the various medications have put on me. Strict diet and exercise being an absolute like bathing and tooth rushing still did not keep up with the medications.

This drug had better freakin' work some huge miracles with my sight to make it worth wasting my life on the sofa, losing this gorgeous head of hair AND taking down my immune system. Every one of those things throw huge curves into my life.

I have places I want to go, things to do. Being a shut in is not part of the life I will live. Side effects have ruled my life for over two years now and I'm tired of it. I want my life back!