Tired

Sunday...

Somewhat better today. Less exhaustion, being extremely cautious and resting before and after everything.

Managed to water the dying plants that have yet to be planted. They were purchased a week ago and are sitting in the garden, still in their store pots. I feel bad that they sit there wilting.

Another handful of hair came out today. It bugs me so much to lose hair, it's part of who I am. The person that I expect to see in the 12x mirror has a gorgeous head of shiny, straight hair. 

It took until I was 48 to find someone who made magic with her scissors. Prior to that, I had wild, red, wavy hair all of the way down my back. Pammy got rid of the grays, cut my hair perfectly, straightened my hair. I look nothing like I did before. She changed my makeup and the way that I look at myself. She also changed the way that I thought about myself. I owe that amazing woman more than words can express.

Darling Husband took me out to breakfast this morning. We relaxed and talked, sitting in a comfortable booth. The coffee was wonderful. I had dry toast and bacon, ate a portion of it, and enjoyed the time together.

I have a plain USB medic alert bracelet, boring, and not my style at all. After some thought, I raided my jewelry and grabbed a sewing box and my lighted stand magnifier. A couple of hours later I had a really great bracelet. A vintage beaded necklace, some lovely ribbon and an antique shoe clip became a classy fashion statement.

My occupational therapy ladies came over the other day for the first appointment. They asked dozens of questions about what I can do and what I need help with to cope with vision loss increasing. They'll tailor their future visits to assist me with daily living skills that will make my life better. 

Cooking is one of the main items that will be worked on. With burners on the front of the stove, I can cook better.  Convenience foods may become a thing of the past. I miss cooking from scratch and doing all of my own baking. Most cooking is done with the Oven, crockpot, electric skillet, etc. It is not how I enjoy cooking, but, it works for now.

They had a lot of different magnifying glasses and gadgets for me to try out. They left a Video magnifier for me to try out and a neat catalog from MaxiAids which shows many items available to make living better.

Tuesday....

After a couple of days of some improvement, I once again hit a wall last night. Crashed hard and slept for 13 hours. Not much better this morning. I managed to dress and throw a load of towels in the washer. That used up my reserves.

Had to cancel my white cane training today. That makes the second week in a row that I had to do it. 

Seeing my Primary Physician this afternoon. The side effects are too much to handle. I can't live like this. It is no life. Not for me, not for anyone.