Weekend ending

We spent Saturday at the family reunion for my husband's side of the family. This one was bittersweet because my father-in-law passed away last January. As much as we loved seeing everyone, it just wasn't the same without Max there. We all talked a lot, oohed and aahed over all of the little ones, ate too much and of course took photos.
Today, we ran to the library. I order the books at the librarie's website and they deliver them to any branch in the county that I prefer. Too much eye strain involved with using a magnifying glass going up and down each aisle to see what books that there are available. Now, it's a simple matter of dropping off the ones in my bag while the librarian gets the ones that I've ordered from the back. I do miss spending time in the library. It's been a home away from home no matter where I've lived over the years.
I finally ordered Braille lessons today. Regular books are too difficult to read even with a couple of magnifying glasses anymore and the large print aren't much better. I may not be able to read with my eyes for much longer but I'll learn to do it with my fingers. Not reading is not an option. I've spent my life surrounded by books, usually a big basket full ready and waiting to be read along with bookcases full of them.
I've downsized my home library again, I tend to do it a few dozen at a time, although a couple of times in my life I let go of more than a thousand in a huge purge. I'm finally down now to my absolute favorites, ones that won't ever be let go of. I'm keeping them in hopes of my sight being restored so I can once again hold them a read normally. I truly mourn the loss of sight when it comes to just being able to pick up a book and read through it. It's been something I've done all of my life, part of just being me. I've always been curious, wanting to learn new things. If I couldn't afford a class then I'd just purchase textbooks on the topic of the moment. With Braille and online courses I should be able to adapt and keep doing what I love.
Looking for hobbies I can do without sight and realized that I can still crochet. I found some beautiful turquoise and blue yarn and have begun working on an afghan. I got so excited to be able to do something that I really enjoy. There's a never ending list of things that I can't do anymore. It gets so frustrating. I try to keep doing the things that I love and end up in tears so often. When I find things that I can still do I rejoice. Small victories, and yet so very important to me. I've always been a person who can do things. When I got hit by a car back in 2001, I had to learn to adapt. There were things that I couldn't do, so I took up new hobbies and activities. Now, most of those things are now on the unable to do list. So, I'll keep hunting for things that I can do, or that I can learn new ways of doing. I'll not spend my life in a rocker while the old passes me by.