Being blind sucks, bites, blows, annoys, frustrates, angers, saddens, depresses, infuriates, and pisses me off royally. It takes away the things I love to do, restricts my movements and freedoms, takes away things I used to be able to do without thinking and took for granted. It hides large portions of my world, leaving me without the safety of seeing danger coming ( ya hear me hybrid drivers, freaking sing loud or make some noise ). It makes basic things like shopping something that exhausts me. Just sitting down with a good book doesn't happen without multiple magnifying glasses and headaches. Hallucinations are getting annoying, my imaginary friends are my brain trying to fill in the blanks and they are not entertaining me enough at all. I want to enjoy sunshine, drive a car, drink grapefruit juice, see myself clearly in a mirror without 12x magnification, surf channels without being a foot from the TV. I want a grocery list on a post it note, not inch tall letters. I want socks that match without standing by an open door with sunglasses on. I want to see in low light, not have the world go pitch black when light levels change. I want to know when the bacon is done before it starts burning, and when the pitcher is full without sticking a (clean) finger in it to see when it gets wet. I want to see if the toast is the color i think it should be. I want Siri to read my mind and do what I want her to, not what she thinks I want. I want to trim my bangs and have it not look like a weedwhacker was used on it. I want to go places on my own and explore. I want to not have to see doctors or take anymore pills. I want a life without side effects, unless I can be promised fun ones, the kind that I never get.
I want my sight back!
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